I don't know what I'm doing with myself any more. Depression hurts. I want to cut my wrist. Why won't she just let me show her how special she is to me. She won't even let me be alone with her. I don't know. I don't want to get upset about it, but I can't help it. I can't even show someone I care about that I really do like them. It seems unfair, but I'm trying to be patience about it. I don't want to push her when she doesn't want to be pushed, but I don't like having someone and not being able to get close and love them. It used to be ok, than what happened? I'm going to be patient and wait a while longer, but if it doesn't change, I really need to talk to her because all it has been doing for me is bringing me in an odd and weird mood that I don't want to be in.


Aaron<3